xiugarnspice

soo, i like to think and write. and i love me. so i’m going to write about myself. narcissistic? tell that to all my exes.

the previous week was a haze, 18/7, i was hunched over my desk working my full-time job and my projects.
my last shuteye was Jul 19 Sat 7:43 AM and i woke up at 9:55 PM
i had my leftover spinach garlic shrimp pasta and a cup of Napoli americano with a teaspoon of honey while mindlessly scrolling through my IG reels
i haven’t showered for a full day so i decided to do an everything reset shower to enter Sunday

i brushed all my hair to my forehead, tied it with a ponytail, and cut an inch and a half off. my last haircut was in the last year, it is now 7 months into the current year, you can imagine the split ends. i have never been to a hair stylist who cut my hair the way i like, so i’m just gotta start chopping it off myself. i’m gonna let it grow longer as it is for now.

japanese teenage girl shampoo brand to strip my hair of oil and grease

ketoconazole shampoo to combat dandruff and hairfall

a moisturizing bar on my cotton washcloth and scrub i go

brightening soap to lighten my previous wounds

a viral japanese hair mask to let sit while i respond to business emails in the shower

i like showering in warm water. maybe because it mimics a human hug all the while stimulating my blood vessels to dilate as i aggressively scrub my body with a washcloth XD i noticed how rough i can be with myself sometimes so i like to remind myself to take a pause, breathe, and move gently.

washed my face with a korean cleanser that i have no special feelings for, dried my face, and got started with the gentlest peeling gel i’ve tried in my life. after all the warm cleansing, i cooled down with cold water to close all my pores and lock the goodness in.

i’m using a soothing essence toner that didn’t work well for my face on my body. instead of throwing it out why not just have an extra moisturizing step after a shower? i like to put cocoa butter on the driest parts of my skin so that’s what i did. while i let the butter absorb, i got started with my face care. i got a japanese troubled skin system from my last trip to Tokyo and i never use anything else anymore. simple is better.

i then put a hair oil and started blow drying my hair.

i’ve been filming my after shower routine because i liked the song i was listening to in the shower. the lyrics represented exactly how i’ve been feeling and as usual, shower thoughts came in. the first half of 2025, and honestly even the previous year, was filled with hurts and wounds and i started realizing i could not take it anymore. i have to outgrow everything and everyone in my old life so i can grow into my new one. the song had specific parts that accurately articulated situations i personally experienced. i wanted to try and cut those parts to use as a background audio for a new video.

oh, i also like to film stuff.

not professionally, i just like to document my life. sometimes i try to be creative about it, sometimes, not.

where was i?

oh yeah. i put a british rose scented body lotion, got dressed with a basic brown plaid skirt, black tank top, black cropped hoodie, and my new black heels from my favorite shoe brand at the moment. i got it on sale ^^ i like to shop but sometimes, i think i like it too much, so to try and compromise with myself, i decided to only buy things if they are on sale, they always do anyway! *ehem* that fast-fashion brand that starts with a letter b goes on sale and everything becomes 70% off if you wait long enough during the sale.

it was already past midnight when i went out. a new day has come.

July 20 Sun 12 1:26 AM